Monday, June 23, 2014

What is in a name?

Hello! 

This is my first post of 2014. What?! LOL 

I just updated the blog name and URL so I thought I'd provide a quick update on why I want to revamp this blog. 

I have too many blogs. I admit this. Like all of my creative work, I went in a lot of different directions with the various blogs, instead of unifying.

I think this is just the nature of creativity, but a bit much to keep track of, practically. ;-) 

Still, each blog is distinct, so for now the multiple blogs remain but I will use this blog to cross-promote and for random musings.

My life right now:

1. Job hunting; school ended for me on April 28, 2014 so I now have my BS in Environmental Science. At the moment I am looking for a local part-time position with benefits. Number 2 explains why.

2.  I need to find a good dog sitter. My husband has a job he loves, but his travel schedule this year has been unpredictable and the trips far more frequent than expected. Our three dogs are not low-maintenance, so I need the freedom of not being gone for more than 4-5 hours at a time until/unless we can find a dog sitter. 

3. I am hoping to open a Paper Kismet shop on Etsy this year where I will sell my papercrafts. Papercrafting was an amazing way to relieve stress during school, but making choices between crafting with paper or beads on any given day is HARD! ;-) At least for me it is.

4. Staying fit. I am only 4'9", so the weight I gained last year might not seem like much to some, but for my frame it was a lot - I lost the weight I needed to, about 6-7lbs, but the goal is keeping it off and keeping my heart healthy. I also want to gain back strength because I have scoliosis, so I need to increase my yoga. About mid-May I started walking every evening, but the distance is inconsistent. I try to eat healthy enough to help me prevent adult-onset diabetes, which runs in my family. I love chocolate though, and eggs. Good thing I also love veggies, and seafood. Sustainable seafood.

5. My husband surprised me with a lovely 4 day trip to Monterey, California as a graduation/birthday/anniversary gift. The trip was in May and I really enjoyed myself, but because I still want to live/work near the ocean it also made it even more difficult to not want to quickly plan my next trip to an ocean destination. I'm pining away for the sights, sounds, and smell of the sea!
6. Anxiety/depression. This I have to add because every day it hinders my progress and success. It is not an excuse but something that I have to admit to myself or I remain in denial that it requires overcoming. I have struggled with anxiety disorder for over two decades. I developed severe depression last year (around April of 2013) as a result of a minor illness that had symptoms that mimicked depression, and therefore seemed to prevent an accurate diagnosis and treatment. The constant fatigue and frustration brought on actual depression, which I finally started feeling free of in January (2014). However, life has seemed overwhelming lately with my anxiety disorder making the weight of choices that much heavier. I want to run off to the ocean but never want to be parted from my precious dogs. Living in California is much too pricey, and moving back to California is not something my husband wants to do anyway. The heat of a Tucson summer (although thankfully it isn't as hot as Phoenix or Yuma) adds to my discontent as I returned from lovely 65 degree days in Monterey to 108 degrees here at home. I am handling the heat much better than in the last few years, and it isn't always 108 for a high, thank goodness! Today it is only supposed to be a high of 103.

I am grateful for my comfortable home with air conditioning, cool concrete floors, and lots of natural light so I don't have to turn on lamps during the day.

I am grateful to have the freedom to make this a slower job search because my husband brings in a good income. 

I am grateful to have my creative supplies, the desire to create, and online shops to earn money from my creations. 

I am grateful for many things. I am also 42, and need to get my butt in gear! LOL 

I need to find a satisfying job that helps others but one where I don't have to use my entire salary to pay for doggie daycare. :-/ I find it to be a conundrum and this doesn't even take into consideration the other personal matters (too personal for this blog, at this time) that I have to factor in. 

My life is being turned upside down this year. So many changes, so many possibilities, too many choices. At least I'll never have to change my name - no matter what might happen! 

The name of this blog is my name. Given to me at birth, not changed upon marriage, and it feels like an anchor right now.
 It was the name I chose for my business (since 2009) even though my online shops are under various other names.

So here I am...and here I go. 
What adventures, and scary pitfalls await?